4 EYES

he said imagine all the people
but i can't do that when i can't see them
my eyes don't work,
every day they just get worse

yours are his
mine are hers

but all i see
are the blurred lines
of a reality
that's always one step ahead of me

IN LOVE WITH HOW I FEEL

so maybe i'm not in love with you,

just the way i feel

but that doesn't make much difference,

doesn't make it more or less real - 

in fact,

it just makes me ill

and i know that lovesickness is a cliche

but a walking,

talking

cliche

is what i've become

ONLY LONELY

am I scared of being alone
or just refusing to grow up?
scared that if I'm ever alone
i'll know the pain of loneliness
I've only previously heard about
from you
and all the other broken homes

ZOMBIE

I am a zombie
half dead, half alive
telling the truth and lying
at the same time
trying to live, but waiting to die
and the thing is in this life
if you're not laughing, you're crying
so I pop these limbs back in their sockets,
empty my pockets of last night's treasure
and nurse my hangover
like a post-adolescent Florence nightingale.
the marks her fingernails made
are still on my skin
as I think to myself
what it's like to be living
I realise I'm no longer a man,
but a zombie:
half dead, half alive
telling a truth and lying
at the same time
trying to live,
and
waiting
to
die

DELICATE CYCLE

now I feel ungrateful
too late to appreciate
what I've got
or not looked at all
a fool,
you trust me
open 24/7
sore head
a machine,
leaking,
stuck on a delicate cycle
you pass me by
quietly thinking
what it would be like
to disappear

PIN HEAD

the concrete illuminates
my sorry eyes
the smoke I breathed
the girls that believed me
are gone now
how do you know who I am?
de-pressed,
a button
that's broken
but I'd never choose
to be like this
I'd kiss you
tell you it's fine
and by fine
I mean fucked
but I am the lost soul
I am the selfish son
no meaning in the bottom of a glass
no belief that this will last
no pretending without you
my pin head, pin heart
dead romantic
at this moment,
you mean everything

PEPPERMINT

last night
I had a peppermint lover
2 seconds away
from owing me a drink