TOO DRUNK TO DREAM

why can I not sleep

without 4 cans inside me?

and even then,

so pitifully

too drunk

to dream

tossing,

turning myself off

factory reset

for a factory reject

wishful thinking

mentally listing

the things that displease me

deceiving myself

in believing these thoughts are important

with the warpaint

of ever unnecessary night food

on my chin

all the tea in china is irrelevant

when you'd rather opium instead

to blow my mind

and suck my head

appearing dead

but still painfully aware

of problems that aren't problems

and the double vision

that comes each night

when the drink's done its job and I'm tired

lying to myself that tonight,

i'll sleep sober